Wednesday, June 19, 2013

My Aha Moment This Morning


Snowball AKA Project Deadline


I was talking with my friend last night at work.  We were bemoaning all the things that always seem to be pressing down on us, turning up the pressure and stress levels.  She was saying how she just needs a day to relax and have nothing to do.  Paraphrasing here...then she added but when I actually get one it, it is not that great.  That made me think about how that happens to me too.

It seems we have become so accustomed to the running that we don't know what to do with a slow day.  It is almost incomprehensible that there is not something that must be done today or that someone doesn't want something!  Surely that cannot be!

I started to think about how we live...there is one project to complete after another.  It is how most of us roll.  Have our lives become To Do Lists and Projects and Deadlines?  Kinda! As I work I am usually thinking... I am half done, almost done...done!  My brain is always running the calendar of events in my head and how I need to do XYZ to be ready.  And I always know what time it is.

So this morning I realized I really only have today to work on my family history!  I was so overwhelmed with; where to start what to do first, how I need to buy more folders as my paper files are getting way too full, I need to write some lessons for my classes, and I want to work on my own genealogy and organize the papers that have been piling up about the Mayflower and get all that in its place....yada, yada yada.  Oh and I want to blog, and research some things on Wikipedia and I have to try hard to finish up on the vacation adventure posts in my spare time.  Oh yeah, and there are all the things I have around the house.  The never-ending watering flowers (ugh!)  cleaning, cooking, you know how it is. 

Then came my AHA!  "Bonnie life is more than just project after endless project."  Life is not a project marathon.  Life is a process.  It is a process of accomplishing things a little at a time while not killing yourself in the process.  It is working on something and finding the joy, not the time clock.  It is balancing the 'have to' moments with the 'want to' moments.   It is having those days we call the "days with nothing to do" be the days of doing plenty, but just what we want to do...not just what we have to do.

 I am not suggesting never doing what we need to do, that would be very irresponsible.  But rather balancing that with the special want to do days.  May I be so bold as to suggest the kind of day when you do something just for you?  That can even include doing for others but on your terms.

In some ways I have been conscious of this feeling since leaving the workplace and that is what I love most about it.   The freedom to choose.  That is what I had the least of when I worked many hours a week for someone else.  Having my own business for six years was so much better because of the flexibility.  Doing what you want does not eliminate work, it just allows you to work at something you like to do...or even PLAY, heaven forbid.

I had a lot of feelings about that not being able to choose how I spent my time phenomenon.  But the Aha of "process not projects" really articulates it for me.  I understood this on a certain level before, but just hadn't attached language to yet.  That tends to make concepts more useful.  Until something moves from the feeling stages to the articulated stage it is hard to make changes.  (That is one reason I love writing so much.)  I want to accomplish things but with a different emphasis and paradigm. 


Nipping at one's heels...

It will help me (I'm hoping) in removing that feeling that there is a big snowball chasing me down a hill that is about to over take me and flatten me completely.  It will also make me face the fact squarely that I am the one putting that snowball on my heels.  I either make that happen or let it happen.

I want to stop putting unrealistic exceptions upon myself and life, in general, because as we all know...the projects just keep coming like beads dropped on a string with no knot at the end.

 I am going to put more emphasis on the process of living well and enjoying all that I do. I seem to use the word "savor" a lot lately.  That is living life as a process not a project.

Me pushing back at the snowball...

You are going to see me chilling (but not on a snowball) a little more and being more realistic.  Man is that he might have JOY.  (Woman too.)  And pushing unrealistically all the time robs me of that.  Some people are much more capable of it than I am.  So anyway...that was my big "Aha" moment today.  As you can see...I am blogging in the middle of all these papers all over my desk that I was reorganizing and decided that instead I needed a little joy... and that always brings me back to my keyboard and you.


Letting the snowball melt all alone...without me!

Are you enjoying your life as a project-oriented person or a person in the process of living your life to the fullest and savoring it?  It doesn't mean being lazy, it means living with a different mindset and more purposefully.  Something to think about.

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4 comments:

Bonnie said...

Our daughter Jen writes..."Nice! Thanks mom. Now you just have to convince that crazy man you live with!!" Haha, so true.

Marie said...

Life is a balance of work and play, or it should be! It's sometimes really hard to find that balance. I have a tendency to over think things and over plan my days. I need to make myself slow down at times as well! We are so much alike it's spooky Bonnie! Love ya! xxoo

Nellie's Cozy place said...

Amen Bonnie,
I could not agree with you more.
When we live that way we enjoy our life so much more and also notice the beauty of the things God has placed around us more, like the people, birds, flowers and all those lil love gifts from Him.
I used to be on the run all the time
but I have learned in my old age (lol) that I am a human being not a human doing!! lol
So sometimes the Lord just want us to be who we are.......if you think about it....Jesus was never in a hurry, and always took time for people........yet look at all He accomplished. Sometimes less is more.........

Loved Jenn's comments....so cute!

You have a lovely day, enjoying what you do because you want to,
and doing a lil have to work too.
A very good thing.

Love ya Sweetie,
Nellie

Sister Susie Says said...

It's not so hard when you're single and can come and go as you want! My problem is (since I retired) to make myself get up and get to doing something! I noticed yesterday (when Nellie called me to come and visit her) I was still sitting in my nightgown, drinking an Ensure, watching t.v. while my dogs laid all over my feet and up against my chair! LOL! My cat was laying on top of my chair against my head!

I don't have to worry about outside. My neighbor mows my yard, I have flowers that are native and don't need my assistance (hibiscus). We have enough rain to take care of that, ha!

I was in "routine" for the 34 years of my life working. It feels great to have a routine of complete nothing and relaxation!

Living in Florida my lifestyle doesn't have to worry about "the snowball effect!" LOL!

The LORD has surely blessed me now to be able to savor life the way I want to and not be in the routine of work, work, work! Praise you, LORD!

I'm blogging with my laptop in my lap and books stacked on top of my printer! It doesn't take much to move them when I have need of my printer!

I am now enjoying and savoring my life to do when I want, what I want, and where I want....or not!
Thanks, Bonnie for the insight to life's joys!
All my best to you and yours, Susan